Jun 03

Gray Hairs Make Me Sad


That’s a good word for what gray (excuse me- silver) hairs tend to do in the light. Especially set against the backdrop of dark brown hair like mine.

Even though I still don’t have many gray hairs, every time I see one I am reminded of something both exciting and depressing at the same time.

I’m only getting older.

Every day I’m one step closer to the end. Whether that’s next week or next century, I only have a limited amount of time on this earth.

…but there are still SOOOO many things I want to do:

-Visit Europe, Asia, South America- heck, even the rest of North America

-Boast a 6 pack at the beach- besides the box of Capri Suns

-Write a book

-Give a speech to more than 50 people

-Be able to get up out of the water during waterboarding (although you’ve probably heard it called “wake boarding”)

-Have movie marathons for the following epic series: Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings and Star Wars

-Go camping in my back yard

…and go camping someplace 1120982 times better than my freakin’ back yard

-See the Northern Lights

-Drink one too many fruity, alcoholic drinks while enjoying the beautiful Carribean

…you get the point.

Even though I like my life right now- and I’m thankful for the blessings God has given me- I’d like to see more. Do more. Become more.

One of the best quotes I’ve ever seen for this is from Marianne Williamson:

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

In other words- God didn’t put us on this earth to stick out heads in the sand and do the bare minimum- especially those of us born in this period of the world, where ANYONE can directly influence millions with the internet.

That’s why I’m moving forward. Instead of just having a wish list, I’m going to make more concrete steps to reaching these goals I have.

Because seriously- a movie marathon? I can do that on a Friday night after the family goes to bed. It’d be an awful Saturday and Sunday, but at least I would have accomplished one of my goals.

Going to other parts of the world? That’s no problem either- I just have to put together the finances and block out the time to go.

Doing these things is simple. Everything is simple.

Easy? No. But if they were easy, they wouldn’t be worth doing.